The Break

Last semester has been pretty tough for me but it indicates a huge change in me. If someone had told me I would be very involved in leadership I would have told them that they were probably right. If someone had told me I would be involved in the leadership of a campus ministry I would have told them they were wrong. It's funny but I put God in the same box most college students do. The box that is labeled "Will devote time to when I graduate". The song tomorrow is one of the greatest song to illustrate what a lot of college students plan. I for one am glad that God claimed me in college.

Tomorrow is not promised so I want to live for him today. That's more than just reading a chapter of the bible every once and awhile and regularly attending Sunday service. That was my original plan for my life when I entered college. I can not honestly remembering studying my bible in high school. So many changes in my life happened since college and in the last year it has been more so. One thing that really changed my life was a conversation that scared the daylights out of me. This conversation was talking about Christians being persecuted, and I was so frightened because I was thinking that I did not want to be persecuted. The people having the conversation talked about knowing who was in Christianity for real. Petrified I pretended to still be asleep. After that I thought constantly on that conversation and decided to not worry about my life but to find Joy in the cross!

This sent me on a journey for life part of this journey led me away from the things I was 'passionate' about before. One thing I've learned about being passionate is that sometimes that passion is more like lust. Consuming not long lasting. I had been having a fling with these things but I was not able to make a commitment to them because I was lustful for them not passionate. After constantly going through the motions I decided to go for a break. After this I was able to talk to my true love more with an uncluttered mind. He has allowed my personal ministry to flourish and has brought me to a position where I can help in leading a ministry. It has been the best break I have ever taken and even though I am doing more ministry wise he is still providing me with the rest I truly need.